fck that

They've just screwed up my plan a bit... but it happens sometimes! I do understand why and how, but you know what? don't give a sh*t, I want things done and I'll fcking realize later that those will be done, no matter what! Muhaha haha!

Anyway it's almost NYE, so here is the time to have some fun and relax. Nice to be in my home town, but it scares me that I'm a bit lost here. Whatever. :D

getting there?

I feel I'm nearly there. so close, so close!!!

játszma

"a játszmának egyetlen megoldása van, az, hogy nem játszod".

Elgondolkodtam.

new phase

Okay, I can feel it: fooked it up, and things are just going in the wrong way? Sure not baby! I'm fooking well and I did what I had to do: it cannot be a problem if you're honest and you really do what you want to do. I did it and it wasn't what I wanted. It happens, nevermind. I'm just letting it go.. but it's a different story now. :) So here is the thing: I just wrote down (ok into something) the basic rules and principals and I'll try to keep them. Why not? It's fooking possible that this is the way... or if not I try it at least. The other option is a journey to Tibet. :D

Keep it funny dear my reader.

going up

They say you're crazy. out of your mind. They are right probably: my brain is fulfill with something and couldn't stop to think of it. I just sit there and try to focus on my task: do this, fix that... but I can't. I just sit there and I smile. and laugh. and...try to focus on the stuff but...I do my job. fix this, do that. but something is different: it doesn't cause any stress; no fear that it won't be done in time. Everything looks pretty simple and easy. I feel myself very lightweight.

I know that this feeling won't be there forever. I know it's "just" a play of your brain (and something else :)), but I really don't care what they say: I feel it and I have it and that's all. I continue my way using my rules and my steps. Is it unbelievable? No. it is what it should be: myself mylife myway.

What a world! What a change!

way

After experiencing a brand new type of relationship, everything has changed again. Well,  not everything and things are getting more clear, but it's hard. Shit happens. If this is my way then this is it.

My way! ;)

weather today...

Weather Today

what's this?

I just made a picture of this something this afternoon. But does anyone know what's this?

ef in 2009

Wtf? I'm back on the track. There is some kind of new year but there is no more than this thought:"Just another year." I really liked to be happy and drunk-a-lot and things like that in the past at NY Eve, but not now: it was just a day and that's all - I really don't know what's missing, but it seems nothing is missing. Just good - good enough. Am I getting older? May be. Or I'm changing... which is perfect if you really want some change. I want a lot! Come on!

 Whooooohooooo!!!